taken from a reddit-post

I instantly fell in love with this pic. So much in love that I had wished to never forget about this pic. So much that I went back to office to make a post about this. So much that I poured myself a drink on a Sunday night just to lubricate my heart gears.

Sigh.

I do not know where to start. I have seen death but never so beautiful. Maybe my love for sunflowers is causing me to see that but that is fine, beauty is like that.

And it is bizzare how the Latin phrase of memento mori was fresh in my mind. I could swear I never bate a second look at it until recently (maybe the morning of the day I am writing this). I could also swear that I did not know a phrase like that existed. It is so beautiful.

It is inspiring me so much. Is this how love should be? To inspire me so much. And then that sunflower. It must have the envy of the Sun when it was in her prime and now the Sun must be longing for her every day He crosses the meridian.

Such must have been Her grace.

Remember that you must die. This also goes back to that one quote I saw in Sri Manjunatha movie.

Chavu nenu undaga radu, adi vochinapudu nenu undanu. Alanti chaavu ki nenu bhaipadanu.

Death won’t come until I am here. I won’t be here when It comes. I am not scared of such Death.

Since the Beginning, if there is something that stayed the same, that is Science. That is why I love it. It is sort of immortal. It never began so it will never end. But Science has got nothing to do with humans or human mind or human thought. If there was something that stayed just as same ever since the beginning to all the living things (to a certain extent even non living things) then that is Death. And that is why my facsination to Death is almost as same as that of mine to Science.

I wonder if the Sunflower maybe thinks that it is ugly now. It is not what it was before but it is just as beautiful. I think the Universe or Time has the power to change what we look like, or what our circumstances are but it can not change what we are. And that Sunflower is still the same Sunflower. Still so beautiful even in death. I wish I was a sunflower.

Maybe I have come to envy Death. Hmm, that is just BS. But I have now decided that I would earn the right to have memento mori tattooed on my left arm (right arm is currently reserved for Dharmo Rakshati Rakshita (which is still to be earned)). I wonder how I will be able to earn this tattoo. That would mean I would have to die and then somehow come back to life. Hmm, until then this post will serve as a reminder of how beautiful Death is.

On 2022-04-12, i got it tattooed on my left arm. there is some uncertainty within me as to if i have earned it wholly or not. the decision to have this tattoo was nevertheless seen through. the reason being the untimely death of an acquaintance. while this acquaintance and i did not share many events, the untimely nature sure took me by surprise. maybe it is my close familiarity with death that now any death strikes close to my heart. so the decision to incur the debt of having the dead sunflower and “memento mori” tattooed was made.

i hate my father for dying. i know i will die as well some day, so i find it very cruel to leave someone behind who would hate my demise. it would be hypocritical of me. this tattoo would also serve as a reminder of this.

On 2022-06-28, i had a bike accident. i think i paid the debt of this tattoo. the bike accident was not a fatal one but at the same time, it was not a minor one. it could have easily been costly. i find myself lucky and this in turn tells me that the debt of having it tattooed has now been paid. a reminder that my actions and thoughts have consequences which might lead me to my own demise at any moment.